10 Weeks Prego

Only two weeks to go until I'm in the clear. Please pray for me.

I woke up this morning with some odd-feeling cramps. Not like the cramps I've been experiencing throughout my whole pregnancy. But scary cramps. I'm trying to think back to how I felt when I had my miscarriage -- did my cramps feel like this then, too?

This past Sunday I had to take my husband to the ER for a horrific reaction to a hornet sting. I was VERY worked up about it all because I know people can die from bad allergic reactions... and he looked horrible. I then got nervous that during our scare, I might've done something to my baby/pregnancy. And of course, now today I have these weird cramps.

I'm hoping they're just gassy cramps. Please let it be gas. (ha)

It's D Day... this week, at least

I still feel as though I'm not pregnant anymore. I had cramping two nights ago that lasted until yesterday morning, but I truly just feel that I'm not pregnant.

But... today is D Day... sort of.

I'm going back to the doctor to get my progesterone test results and get another internal ultrasound. I'm freaking out. My appointment isn't for another 6 hours -- getting thru the work day is going to be rough.

And to top it off, I leave for vacation tonight with my husband and my family. What if something isn't right at the doctor's office? What then?

I'm trying not to think the worst, but I also feel as though I need to prepare myself in case the worst happens... again.

I've been OK waiting all week, but today is going to be a killer.

I will pray all day. Please pray for me too.

First Appointment

All went well at the first appointment. I went last Friday -- I was 6 weeks 2 days. Everything looked good and we saw the heartbeat flutter. I was a happy camper.

The doctor told me because we saw the heartbeat, I had a 92% chance of having a healthy pregnancy, but she then went on to tell me she was going to test my progesterone to see if it was high enough to sustain a pregnancy. If my progesterone level is lower than 5, I will definitely miscarry. If it's between 6-10, it's sort of up in the air. If it's 11 or higher, then the chance of having a successful pregnancy is VERY good. I got the bloodwork drawn on Monday and have another appointment to see my doctor this Friday. I'm keeping positive thoughts.

I learned during my appointment that the little things that made me nervous that I might be miscarrying are actually fine signs of pregnancy -- including cramps. The cramps are just the uterus expanding, allowing room for the baby. I was very happy to know that.

I'm Scared

So, I am 6 weeks today. But I'm deathly afraid I'm not pregnany anymore.

Yesterday, around 5p, I started getting pretty bad period cramps. I know people say that have this during pregnancy, but they were pretty bad -- and lasted until about 7a this morning. I gagged a little when I was flossing my teeth this morning, and since then, I feel like all of my pregnancy symptoms have gone away. I don't feel as nauseous as I did yesterday and I don't feel as tired, either. I'm completely freaking out and debating calling my doctor to go in for an ultrasound (even though I'm scheduled to see her this Friday). Fortunately, my boobs still hurt, but when I had my last miscarriage, my boobs continued to hurt after I lost the baby.

I truly don't know if I'm strong enough to go through this again. I'm praying to God every second that everything is OK with my pregnancy and that it will be successful and I will carry full term.

Please God. Please bless my husband and me with a precious baby. I know we will make the best parents ever.

4 Weeks

So, I'm officially 4 weeks and 3 days pregnant and I'm feeling really nervous. I feel like I have cramps today and I'm so nervous that it's the beginning of a miscarriage. I'm trying to be positive and realize many women have cramps during their pregnancies, but because of what I've been through in the past, the worst cannot get out of my head.

I don't have any cravings and no sickness at this point, although, I do find that I'm hungrier than usual.

Until next time...

15 DPO

So... the day is finally here. I'm 15 DPO and I should definitely get my period today -- and if I don't get my full period, there should at least be some spotting. I'm going to try to stay positive, though, as I have no spotting or period yet (but then again it's only 9:30a).

Here's what I feel today:

• cramps -- they pretty much feel exactly as they do when I start my period
• canker sores still -- again... something I have right before I get my period
• I feel a little weak today -- just different than I normally feel. Maybe this is how I feel before I get my period, but I've never paid close enough attention before

I wish I documented exactly how I felt last time I got pregnant. I cannot remember for the life of me if I had cramps that day or any symptoms leading up to the day I got my BFP.

I will continue to update as the day progresses. I truly hope I have good news to report.

So, it's 2:15p and still no sign of the wicked witch. I hope this is a good sign.

• What I can say, though, is that I've been sneezing WAY more than usual today -- I've done some research and some sites have said this can happen in early pregnancy
• I think my cramps are gone-zo?

14 DPO

I still feel cramps -- not horribly bad, but enough where I'm pretty sure AF is coming tomorrow. This is getting depressing.

So, it's about 4p now and here's what I've felt all day:

• it feels like I've been doing crunches for a few days straight (I haven't done a single crunch)
• I have a zit smack dab in the middle of my chin
• I have a few canker sores in my mouth, which I always get before my period

Also, I'm EXTREMELY sunburnt. I never (rarely) get sunburnt. I was outside for probably a max of three hours this weekend. It hurts to put my bra on -- and it hurts to continue to wear my bra. So, I got to thinking, could there be something to this since it's rare that I burn like this? I did some research and found that women who are pregnant have much more sensitive skin and are more likely to burn than if they weren't pregnant. So, although I'm fully expecting the wicked witch to come tomorrow, I am keeping my hopes up for something wonderful. I should know tomorrow.

The TWW had come down to 24 hours.

13 DPO

I have cramps. Ugh.

As the day wore on, my cramps really felt like stretching -- like I had done way too many situps or something. Hopefully that's a good sign!

10 DPO

I was supposed to go to the dentist today to get a cavity filled, but because I'm not sure if I might be pregnant, I figured it was better to put the appointment off since I would have to get Novocaine at it anyway. I figure, I have one miscarriage under my belt already, I'm going to do everything in my power not to have another one if I ever get pregnant again.

Anyway, it was really difficult again to get out of bed. But maybe these are just symptoms I get before I get my period? Plus, have another mild headache.

It's almost noon and I seem to be getting minor cramps. :(

9 DPO

Well, I woke up today EXTREMELY tired. Totally thought about calling into work and saying I had to come in late. I also woke up with a pretty sucky headache -- it felt as though I had one too many glasses of wine last night (FYI -- I drank no alcohol last night). Also, I was pretty hungry all morning (and still kind of am, even after eating a little something before leaving for work).

Still a little dizzy today when I stand up too fast.

And perhaps a little gassy? :)

Still extreeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeemely tired. Like... could face plant any second. It's been like that all day and it's 3:15p right now...

I wanted to CRASH after work. Unbelievably tired. I slept from 7-7:30p, but then had to take my dog to the store and for a walk. For the 2 hours I wasn't home, I felt like a zombie. I also had REALLY minor cramps that last maybe an hour at the most.

8 DPO

Again, not really feeling anything today. I feel like I'm going to the bathroom more than usual -- but maybe I'm just drinking more water? I swear I do things to myself during the TWW to make me think I'm pregnant: I'll push on my boobs to make them sore; drink more water so I have to pee more; feel like I can't see as well hoping the hormones are f'ing with my eyes; the list goes on.

The only promising thing for me this month is that last night my husband made a comment that my hormones seem completely out of whack because I was acting crazier than normal (haha). He typically doesn't comment on things like this... so maybe he's right. Let's hope so.

PS -- I think a girl I work with is pregnant. Sweet. Another person to add to the list.

Update: I had minor cramps at night -- makes me think I'll be getting a BFN.

Update: Totally forgot that every time I stood up from sitting down, I was very dizzy.