Sticky Glue

I'm nearing the end of my fourth week and I'm still so nervous. My boobs hurt so bad on Saturday and then the pain completely went away Saturday night and Sunday morning. When I was sitting in church, I was convinced I was starting to miscarry -- I thought I felt blood or something come out of me. Fortunately, when I got home, everything was OK. And now my boobs have returned to hurting, so that makes me feel better.

I go to the dr next Friday, July 3 and have a feeling I'm going to be very nervous until then. I'm trying so hard to be positive, but it's hard when you've already been thru one miscarriage. Talk about the TWW, I'm not in the TMW (2 month wait).

Other than my boobs hurting, things have been pretty smooth sailing. Although, I will say that I'm feeling a little nauseous today -- I welcome it, though. I will never complain about any pregnancies symptoms because I'm just so grateful I'm pregnant.

I pray every day that God gives me stick glue this pregnancy and I carry the baby full term.

14 DPO

I still feel cramps -- not horribly bad, but enough where I'm pretty sure AF is coming tomorrow. This is getting depressing.

So, it's about 4p now and here's what I've felt all day:

• it feels like I've been doing crunches for a few days straight (I haven't done a single crunch)
• I have a zit smack dab in the middle of my chin
• I have a few canker sores in my mouth, which I always get before my period

Also, I'm EXTREMELY sunburnt. I never (rarely) get sunburnt. I was outside for probably a max of three hours this weekend. It hurts to put my bra on -- and it hurts to continue to wear my bra. So, I got to thinking, could there be something to this since it's rare that I burn like this? I did some research and found that women who are pregnant have much more sensitive skin and are more likely to burn than if they weren't pregnant. So, although I'm fully expecting the wicked witch to come tomorrow, I am keeping my hopes up for something wonderful. I should know tomorrow.

The TWW had come down to 24 hours.

11 DPO

OK... so I only have a few more days to go. Luckily my day today will be occupied by work and a family function tonight. I have to make sure I have plenty to keep myself busy with over the weekend. I've already put chores in place for myself so I'm not constantly thinking about the chance of being pregnant or wanted to test.

But... I'm 11 DPO and here are my symptoms (though hardly there):

• lower back pain (could this be from bowling last night?)
• sensitive breasts (but not painful nipples like the first time I was pregnant)

I'm sure I'll have more updates as the day goes on...

• I feel like I have shortness of breath today
• and perhaps some twinges near my uterus

The wait continues...

• Heading to my family function and have major cramps. CRAMPS. UGH.

Feta, please.

Every time I'm in my TWW, I contemplate, should I eat this? Should I eat that? Everything you're NOT supposed to eat when you're pregnant are things that I question. Today was one of those days, but I decided I can't live my life as if I'm pregnant all the time because it will totally fuck with my head and make me think I'm pregnant.

Anyway, I ordered a salad today for lunch -- it came with feta cheese. I choose to keep it on the salad for the above reason I mentioned. I went to Aladdin's to pick up the salad, headed over to the eye doctor to pick up my new glasses, and headed back to work to eat the long-anticipated delicious Aladdin's salad.

I opened up the container.

No feta.

While any other day I probably would've been really pissed, today I wasn't. I thought... I wonder if this is an act of God. Maybe I shouldn't have gotten the salad with feta on it. Maybe this is God's way of telling me I'll get a BFP in 5 days. Let's hope.

But, for now, I will continue living my life as an un-pregnant girl. I can't fuck with myself more than I already do.

7 DPO

Nothing. That's exactly what I feel. No symptoms. Nothing.

The only promising thing for me is that the last time I got pregnant I had the same symptoms... or lack thereof.

Fingers crossed. Only 7 more days to go...

3 DPO Symptoms?

Actually, the TWW began a few days ago, but I always sort of disregard the first few days because I feel like no symptoms will show up anyway.

I used an OPK this month instead of charting my temps (per dr's order), so I believe I'm 3DPO.

Here are some symptoms (?):

• had to PEEL myself out of bed this morning
• woke up with a headache -- it didn't go away for about 5 hours
• oddly super tired (especially since I went to bed at 10:30p last night)
• insanely hungry
• think I'm peeing more than usual, but that could be in my head

I'll be annoying and track how I feel each DPO -- perhaps you will have similar symptoms (if that's what we can call them, even thought we have no idea if we're pregnant).