BAM! GOOD NEWS!

I was freaking out about today's appointment. Today was the day the dr was going to try to find the baby's heartbeat on the Doppler. Every time we've heard it so far, it's been thru the ultrasound. The Doppler was a big deal -- once you hear the heartbeat there, your chance of miscarriage goes down to 5% (which is what every woman's chance of miscarriage is).

Anyway, again, I wasn't feeling pregnant and I had convinced myself something happened. I had to get a whole physical today, so I was super nervous about everything. The doctor used the Doppler and was able to hear the baby's heartbeat -- however, I didn't hear it at first, so she continued to use the Doppler until I was able! I heard the heartbeat for a long time and it was music to my ears. Every time I think about it now, my eyes well up with tears. I'm so happy.

Anyway, the heartbeat was 168 (mine was 100 which we all thought was pretty funny -- I was very nervous, obviously). Old wives' tales says it's a girl, but you never know! We already made the appointment to find out the gender because my husband cannot wait. We go on Oct. 2 to find out what we're having. How exciting! I'm in such a great mood. This is such a good feeling. I cannot wait to hold my little baby sometime in February!

I Am Officially High-Maintenance

(I wanted to post this on Friday, but I had no Internet connection at work and had a million things to do after work once I got home)

So, on Thursday I called my OB -- I explained that my husband was in the ER on Sunday and that I totally freaked out about the whole thing. That I stressed myself out and that my nerves were completely out of whack. I explained that I hoped I didn't do anything to harm my baby, but I wanted to make sure. So I got an appointment for an extra ultrasound. Sweet.

Fast forward to Friday, I told my boss I couldn't come in at normal time because I had a dr appointment. I went to my appointment and low and behold, my little pumpkin was doing very well. His/her heartbeat was 174 (not sure if that's a little high?) and things looked great. I was so relieved and only have a few more days to wait until my next ultrasound (this Friday)!

Only thing is I didn't tell my husband about how I freaked and went to the dr on Friday. I knew he would think I was crazy and I just didn't feel like getting into it with him. I have some more peace of mind now and that's all that matters.

Weird Hunger

I've finally put two and two together and realized I have a strange appetite now that I'm pregnant. Sometimes I'm hungry in the morning, sometimes I'm not (but I make myself eat a delicious bagel every morning regardless); I'm ALWAYS STARVING at lunch -- I eat so much and still feel hungry (like right now); and at dinner time, food is the last thing I want. I'm not nauseous or anything at dinner time, but I just have no appetite. I wonder if that's normal. Then, I'll get hungry at like 9 or 10 when I'm laying in bed trying to fall asleep.

10 Weeks Prego

Only two weeks to go until I'm in the clear. Please pray for me.

I woke up this morning with some odd-feeling cramps. Not like the cramps I've been experiencing throughout my whole pregnancy. But scary cramps. I'm trying to think back to how I felt when I had my miscarriage -- did my cramps feel like this then, too?

This past Sunday I had to take my husband to the ER for a horrific reaction to a hornet sting. I was VERY worked up about it all because I know people can die from bad allergic reactions... and he looked horrible. I then got nervous that during our scare, I might've done something to my baby/pregnancy. And of course, now today I have these weird cramps.

I'm hoping they're just gassy cramps. Please let it be gas. (ha)

Thank GOD!

I just got back from my doctor appointment (thankfully clients were VERY high-maintenance today, so my day FLEW by) and all is well! I'm technically 9.5 weeks today, however, my baby is measuring 10 weeks, which is good news.

I'm still freaking out a little bit because my progesterone is 9.4 and my doctor explained to me that I have an 83-86% chance of having a healthy pregnancy. That's no 100%, I'll tell ya. It makes me nervous, but I will continue to stay positive and pray and everything will be OK.

I have an appointment in two weeks. Lets hope they're not the longest two weeks of my life.

Today is Going to D-R-A-G

It's only 8:30 in the morning and my appointment with my OB isn't until 3p. I don't know how I'm going to make it through the day in an OK-state-of-mind. I have meetings galore today. Is that a good thing or bad thing? It might keep my mind off my appointment at 3p, but the appointment on my mind might distract me from my meeting and cause problems as a result.

I've prayed so much this week and am praying that I will have a wonderfully happy weekend with my husband and 9.5 week old baby in my belly.

I Want to Feel Like Shit

So, not only is it crazy that women who've experienced miscarriage wish away their first trimester, but women who experienced miscarriage also want to feel like shit.

I don't.

Some days I feel kinda gross, but other days (like recent days), I don't feel bad AT ALL. Of course, this makes me wonder, am I going through another miscarriage? God... I hope not. Please no.

I haven't felt "growing" cramps since Sunday (it's Thursday), I've had a headache pretty much all week and this morning I woke up and my boobs didn't hurt.

I just wish I would start projectile vomiting all over the place or feel so bad that I can't even get out of bed -- just so I know everything is OK.

Please let everything be OK.